You don’t even read this, so you’ll probably never see it.

To: The girl I affectionately knew as ‘Laddu’.

I never stopped thinking about you everyday. Saying good-bye isn’t easy and I feel like I just watched you walk out of the door without doing anything. I wanted to tell you how I really felt about you. I wanted to tell you that ‘I love you’. That you’re the most intelligent and beautiful person I’ve ever known. The truth is that since I’ve known you, I cannot love anyone else. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, have kids, a beautiful house, live through happily ever afters and through every obstacle life throws at us. I want to spend forever with you. I keep sitting here believing that everything will be okay, that you’ll walk back into my life someday, that maybe we’ll cross paths in a big city and madly fall in love with each other all over again. Are you my destiny? Or was it destiny that wrote that we’ll never be together?

I hope that someday in the future you’re thinking about me and you come across this post and realize that I didn’t lose you, you lost me.

-A